HOW? i not understand.i don't understand how parents do it. having a career, being a wife/husband and being a full time parent?! i'm single, no kids, and have a full time job....and i'm bearly making it. i'm struggling...struggling mad. in all aspects...or perhaps i'm letting my emotions get to me? perhaps it's not as bad as it seems....i'm sure it isn't...in fact, it isn't... but how do parents do it? balancing everything out?! being organized? keeping a good head on your shoulders...tending to every need around you? i not understand. i get a lot of..."well you just do it. you do what you need to do." i really just don't understsand. i grew up with 5 brothers and 6 sisters. i don't know how my parents handled it. we turned out pretty ok. they had no education. i feel like i'm constantly planning, organizing, managing, communicating....and the funny thing is..these are the things that i suck at the most! lols....i do this at my job and with my family....i do enjoy it eventually because of the end product and b/c of what i learn through the process...and seeing the development in everyone involved...truly amazing!..... but i still don't understand...lols... people ask me when i will be getting married...when i'll settle...when i'll be starting a family.... this is why i am not anywhere near marriage...heck a relationship...b/c i'm messed up! lols..God still trying to do some crazy stuff in my heart b/c i for sure need it and i am totally not ready yet. yes you can never be ready....but i only go when God tells me to go....i've learned one too many lessons..and am still learning... God has great plans for me...and I'm following His path....it might be rough...it might even be lonely at times...but I know He knows the way and I'm willing to follow..... ai ya....Jesus, You are amazing...despite what i'm feeling right now...which is AHHHHHHHHH! lols. so all in all, i give you all props who can manage well....b/c i'm still trying to figure things out. |